So, a big change in my life that I haven’t written about yet, surprisingly, is my job. I got to quit my retail job that I hated because it added an incredible amount of anxiety and negativity to my life and now I work at a daycare! It’s awesome, I love working with kids and the other staff members are so friendly and understanding. So that’s a really cool development in my life that I’m so grateful for.
My partner got promoted and we are becoming slightly more financially stable, so it’s looking like hormones/legal name change might be closer to becoming a real possibility, should I choose to engage in them. In a way that’s really exciting but it’s also scary because it means that coming out to my extended family would become more of a pressing issue… On the one hand I’d really love to come out to my family because it would be such a relief to not have that over my head all of the time. On another hand though, I know I’d be really sad if/when some of them decided not to be a part of my life anymore… and I know that I shouldn’t want them in my life if they don’t embrace who I am, but I’m just not there yet. Also, I’m not exactly looking forward to all of paperwork I’m going to have to fill out for like every bureaucratic system I’m involved in once/if I start pursuing name change and/or hormones…
I’m really trying to focus on doing things in my daily life that make me happy. Essentially saying happiness is a priority, because I’m kind of tired of being/feeling so super cynical/negative so much. I know that there’s a lot to feel negative/cynical about, but I also know that negative energy kind of functions as poison in my life. I’m not going to invalidate my feelings of negativity but I’m just going to try to find some positivity to balance it out a bit.
I’m still waiting to hear back from the grad school I applied to… fingers crossed!
I guess that’s all for now. Until next time..